March 3rd 2018

[Tiggnutz]

Saturday morning chillin

[Dream]

I think I pulled something from coughing. It hurts to breathe in. I would like to be done with this shit, please.

[Dream]

Fun update: I just got into an argument with my mom over my sister. My mom is the only one still putting up with her shit and my mom is convinced she's the only one showing my sister any compassion and love while my sister does nothing but bad mouth my mom behind her back. I quit. I'm not getting involved. Kaye will either OD or piss off her incredibly controlling and psychotic boyfriend who is incredibly likely to kill her before he lets her leave. But it's okay because he's going to have a job on Monday and then everything will magically be better.

[Jason]

When talking to your mom, it's important to remember that we don't know what it is like to have children of our own, and it is a totally different kind of love than the love we are accustomed to. I'm certain that nobody is hurting from the situation more than her. Not saying your mom is correct in the situation, as I don't know all the details, but she will almost surely never quit on your sister.

[showa58taro]

Had another panic attack, methinks? (wtf)

You ok buddy?

Absolutely. Just a weird, annoying experience.

I don’t know if it’s helpful but most panic attacks subside if you count down from 100. Sounds stupid I know but it tends to work.

[Dream]

Had another panic attack, methinks? (wtf)

You ok buddy?

Absolutely. Just a weird, annoying experience.

I don’t know if it’s helpful but most panic attacks subside if you count down from 100. Sounds stupid I know but it tends to work.

I count things in the room that are plentiful (dots on the ceiling if it's textured, tiles on the floor, lines in woodgrain, a certain aspect of a pattern on a curtain or bedspread or wallpaper, etc.)

[showa58taro]

Had another panic attack, methinks? (wtf)

You ok buddy?

Absolutely. Just a weird, annoying experience.

I don’t know if it’s helpful but most panic attacks subside if you count down from 100. Sounds stupid I know but it tends to work.

I count things in the room that are plentiful (dots on the ceiling if it's textured, tiles on the floor, lines in woodgrain, a certain aspect of a pattern on a curtain or bedspread or wallpaper, etc.)

Yup. Same principle I guess. Just a helpful way to try and advance the feeling and get it to subside.

[Dream]

When talking to your mom, it's important to remember that we don't know what it is like to have children of our own, and it is a totally different kind of love than the love we are accustomed to. I'm certain that nobody is hurting from the situation more than her. Not saying your mom is correct in the situation, as I don't know all the details, but she will almost surely never quit on your sister.

The details are pretty much that my mom keeps giving her canned and boxed food to "keep her from starving to death" which my sister and her boyfriend then sell for drug money. My mom's argument is she will not let my sister starve to death. I said I'm not asking her to, I'm asking her to think about what help she gives. Canned and boxed food can be sold, a plate of cooked food is much less likely to be sold, but my sister is also much less likely to be appreciative of it and might actually get pissed off because she can't sell it!

I'm not asking her to leave her for dead, I'm asking her to think like an addict before she flies in to rescue my sister instead of actually helping her. Rescuing enables addiction, there are ways to actually help that aren't enabling but she doesn't want to hear about those options because they are much harder to accomplish.

She may not "quit" on my sister, but in doing what she's doing right now, she's quitting on the rest of us because we dare to challenge her version of reality with, you know, actual reality.

[Dream]

Had another panic attack, methinks? (wtf)

You ok buddy?

Absolutely. Just a weird, annoying experience.

I don’t know if it’s helpful but most panic attacks subside if you count down from 100. Sounds stupid I know but it tends to work.

I count things in the room that are plentiful (dots on the ceiling if it's textured, tiles on the floor, lines in woodgrain, a certain aspect of a pattern on a curtain or bedspread or wallpaper, etc.)

Yup. Same principle I guess. Just a helpful way to try and advance the feeling and get it to subside.

for me, just counting didn't help. I had to visually focus on something as well or the panic attack just got worse.