April 18th 2019

[Tiggnutz]

Thong Thursday

[Headhunter]

I am missing the multiculturalism of California. I was fiending for hot white girls in Asia and now I miss all the Thai and Chinese girls now that I'm back in Europe. I want it all, on the same damn street.

[Dream]

Just dropping by to vent because I trust you guys when life is falling the fuck apart.

Having a grand time of things right now. Sister's in the psych ward for threatening to kill my mom. My mom is still defending her and won't accept that she's a fucking psycho. My dad is trying to get my sister declared mentally incompetent so she can't check herself out and has to stay in for treatment. My oldest niece is just done with her mom's antics and my mom is pissed about that. My youngest niece is still desperate to get the love and affection from my sister that she's just completely incapable of giving. And my sister is a master manipulator so I'm kind of terrified that she will convince the doctors she's fine, they'll release her and she'll get back to my parents' house and kill them all.

Thankfully I have therapy tomorrow so I get to tell him all of this.

Huge plus side right now is that I asked for a big raise at work and they didn't say no right away. And if they do say no, I'm looking for another job 'cause my boss is getting worse and worse about shit and I'm just fucking done. They are apparently going to have a meeting about my raise on May 1st. Whether or not I get to go to that meeting, I don't know, they haven't asked me to come yet, so whatever.

[Tiggnutz]

That sucks Dream, hoping you get that big ole raise

[Jason]

My Mom is kind of in the same boat as yours, but it's my brother. He is Jekyll and Hyde. Good man when he's off the drugs, but a horrible person when he's on them. In and out of jail, my Mom/Dad is constantly housing him and he's always promising to get off it. And he's gone years without it but keeps crawling right back to it (meth). She finally let it go, but only because he found somewhere else to live. I think if he gets off the drugs and comes back she'll keep giving him chances.

As far as the raise, if you're involved in the meeting you're gonna have to let them know that you are kind of the backbone of the shit without outright telling them. But they need to realize how important you are and that you can't be replaced so easily.

[Jason]

Thong Thursday

Taylor Swift needs to have a slip for one of these Thursdays. But she is too careful about it, dammit.

[showa58taro]

Sorry Dream, that sounds mental and really challenging. Hopefully all will be ok for the good ones in the family.

[Jason]

Forgot how hot Brooke Shields was back in the 90s. Good lordy.

[Jmac Attack]

Sorry to hear that, Dream.

[Jmac Attack]

Forgot how hot Brooke Shields was back in the 90s. Good lordy.

I think she is still hot, but yeah ...back in the day, she was iconically beautiful, if that makes sense lol.

[Dream]

My Mom is kind of in the same boat as yours, but it's my brother. He is Jekyll and Hyde. Good man when he's off the drugs, but a horrible person when he's on them. In and out of jail, my Mom/Dad is constantly housing him and he's always promising to get off it. And he's gone years without it but keeps crawling right back to it (meth). She finally let it go, but only because he found somewhere else to live. I think if he gets off the drugs and comes back she'll keep giving him chances.

As far as the raise, if you're involved in the meeting you're gonna have to let them know that you are kind of the backbone of the shit without outright telling them. But they need to realize how important you are and that you can't be replaced so easily.

Same kind of situation, including the meth. I've been trying to get my mom to have my sister committed for years because she *needs* to be monitored and medicated to not be dangerous. When she's on anti-psychotics, she does so much better, but after a while she thinks she's cured and stops the meds and the cycle starts all over again. She refuses to accept the diagnosis of Schizophrenia and Bipolar. Add in an unhealthy dose of Narcissistic Personality Disorder and that's my sister.

My mom thinks I just want to lock her away to forget about her, but that's not the case. I've been terrified of her killing everyone in my family since I was a little kid. Her genuinely psychotic behavior is a huge factor in my mental health issues. Growing up in constant fear fucks you up and if it wasn't my sister I was terrified of, it was my dad and sometimes my mom (though to a much lesser extent, she more or less just made me feel like shit about myself more than threatening physical harm.) My brother is the only one I actually thought I could trust and was unlikely to harm me at all. I want all three of them to get mental health help, but my mom is a lot like my sister, can't admit there's something wrong because if she did the illusion of a perfect family is broken. My dad is just in the "That's all bullshit" camp. Meanwhile, I'm doing about 60% better than I was because the therapy has been helping me get out of the whole "constant fear and in need of protection" state of mind.

I'm just glad that for right now she's in the hospital and getting treatment of some sort. I just hope my mom and dad follow through on getting her declared mentally incompetent so she can't check herself out without a doctor's approval. It took my sister having an actual psychotic break (she was ranting about killing my mom because she was putting drugs in the air vents and stealing her stuff) for my mom to finally see what's been in front of her this whole time. A psychotic break that could have been avoided if my mom had listened to me and gotten my sister into therapy like I've been trying to push her to do for the past few years.


If your brother is at all like my sister, you have my sympathy 'cause I know it fucking sucks watching that and being unable to convince the parents to actually do something hard but useful instead of coddling and enabling them because it allows the parents (usually mom, 'cause a psychotic addict of a child makes them seem like a bad mom even though mental illness is like 60% genetics and out of their hands to a point and the addiction is often a symptom of the mental illness rather than having a bad mom, though having a bad upbringing can definitely contribute to intensifying both. But, even the best moms can get a psychotic addict for a kid and it had nothing to do with their upbringing.) to be in denial about the reality of the situation.


I'm in a ranty mood. Lol.

[Jason]

My Mom is kind of in the same boat as yours, but it's my brother. He is Jekyll and Hyde. Good man when he's off the drugs, but a horrible person when he's on them. In and out of jail, my Mom/Dad is constantly housing him and he's always promising to get off it. And he's gone years without it but keeps crawling right back to it (meth). She finally let it go, but only because he found somewhere else to live. I think if he gets off the drugs and comes back she'll keep giving him chances.

As far as the raise, if you're involved in the meeting you're gonna have to let them know that you are kind of the backbone of the shit without outright telling them. But they need to realize how important you are and that you can't be replaced so easily.

Same kind of situation, including the meth. I've been trying to get my mom to have my sister committed for years because she *needs* to be monitored and medicated to not be dangerous. When she's on anti-psychotics, she does so much better, but after a while she thinks she's cured and stops the meds and the cycle starts all over again. She refuses to accept the diagnosis of Schizophrenia and Bipolar. Add in an unhealthy dose of Narcissistic Personality Disorder and that's my sister.

My mom thinks I just want to lock her away to forget about her, but that's not the case. I've been terrified of her killing everyone in my family since I was a little kid. Her genuinely psychotic behavior is a huge factor in my mental health issues. Growing up in constant fear fucks you up and if it wasn't my sister I was terrified of, it was my dad and sometimes my mom (though to a much lesser extent, she more or less just made me feel like shit about myself more than threatening physical harm.) My brother is the only one I actually thought I could trust and was unlikely to harm me at all. I want all three of them to get mental health help, but my mom is a lot like my sister, can't admit there's something wrong because if she did the illusion of a perfect family is broken. My dad is just in the "That's all bullshit" camp. Meanwhile, I'm doing about 60% better than I was because the therapy has been helping me get out of the whole "constant fear and in need of protection" state of mind.

I'm just glad that for right now she's in the hospital and getting treatment of some sort. I just hope my mom and dad follow through on getting her declared mentally incompetent so she can't check herself out without a doctor's approval. It took my sister having an actual psychotic break (she was ranting about killing my mom because she was putting drugs in the air vents and stealing her stuff) for my mom to finally see what's been in front of her this whole time. A psychotic break that could have been avoided if my mom had listened to me and gotten my sister into therapy like I've been trying to push her to do for the past few years.


If your brother is at all like my sister, you have my sympathy 'cause I know it fucking sucks watching that and being unable to convince the parents to actually do something hard but useful instead of coddling and enabling them because it allows the parents (usually mom, 'cause a psychotic addict of a child makes them seem like a bad mom even though mental illness is like 60% genetics and out of their hands to a point and the addiction is often a symptom of the mental illness rather than having a bad mom, though having a bad upbringing can definitely contribute to intensifying both. But, even the best moms can get a psychotic addict for a kid and it had nothing to do with their upbringing.) to be in denial about the reality of the situation.


I'm in a ranty mood. Lol.

Yeah. Sounds a lot like my brother. It's been in the back of my mind for years that he'd possibly go on a family murder spree. He can get that scary. And has been off and on like this since I was a kid. Him and my Dad scuffled a few times years ago and it kinda fucked with my head when I was a kid. Hasn't happened since I was probably like 10, but it was kinda traumatizing to see my own family go at it in the living room, and he still gets angry like that. It's gotten to the point now that my parents (especially my Mom) insist I be there when he is going on a rampage and they want to confront him, because they know he'll never get violent around me. One reason being I am his little brother and the guilt is there for not being someone to look up to, the other reason being he knows I could beat his ass into oblivion if the shit hits the fan. He always has excuses for his shitty behavior. Nothing is his fault, he was brought up poorly, etc... Dumbass, we have the same parents and look how awesome I am (lolz). But really, he hung out with a BAD crowd at a very young age and he's always been down an ugly road. I always wondered (and was always annoyed about it as a kid) why my Mom wouldn't let me play with friends at their houses or ride bikes around town until I was like 14 without supervision. It was because my brother had all the freedom and had the worst friends.

As long as my brother and your sister show glimpses of how great they can be when clean, there is just no way a mother will let it go. They'll go forever trying to preserve the purity that still exists with their child. I'll never understand what it's like to be a mother, so that's the best I can do is empathize.