April 4th 2018

[zombie]

Maybe the cause doen't matter. Whether it was an abusive parent, a bird pooping in you at the beach, or a magical enchantment by an evil leprechaun, it is in the past. The focus should be on what you are doing today and tomorrow to change it. Sadly for many, they keep pushing the changes off and allow themselves to be trapped.

Exchange "media" with heroin, and the problem is the same. More and more escape, less and less reality. Then the escape ceases to be as pleasurable. Then what?

i meant the reason they aren't creating or building or exploring. whatever. not the reason that they became depressed.

the escape shouldn't cease to be pleasurable. for someone who genuinely enjoys films, it wouldn't be. if they were well-adjusted, the enjoyment would still be there. but just telling them to be well-adjusted isn't going to help them, really.

I like Chef Boyardee ravioli, but eating it for hours every single day would change how much I like it.

yeah, that's the equivalent of watching the one single same movie over and over, not movies in general.

It is still just passive entertainment. Ravioli for lunch, beefaroni for dinner, spaghetti for supper.

it doesn't have to be passive, but fair point. it's still something that was enjoyed, and then for unrelated to the movie reasons, it stopped being as enjoyed. that kind of bites, to me.

[Foo]

i think most of my issues come from not liking myself at all, and not being able to see why others could. i am too much in my own head. but that doesn't go away when i'm doing tasks and such. it does go away sometimes, when i'm watching movies or tv. but lately i've found that i don't enjoy that as much. and that kind of bites.

I like you and I probably only like about 40 people.

i would ask why, but it just tends to get on people's nerves.

Why not? You are kind. It is as good a reason as any.

[zombie]

i think most of my issues come from not liking myself at all, and not being able to see why others could. i am too much in my own head. but that doesn't go away when i'm doing tasks and such. it does go away sometimes, when i'm watching movies or tv. but lately i've found that i don't enjoy that as much. and that kind of bites.

I like you and I probably only like about 40 people.

i would ask why, but it just tends to get on people's nerves.

Why not? You are kind. It is as good a reason as any.

good call. i don't really see value in myself, but won't tell other people not to, too.

[Jason]

Everyone here thinks of you as king of HMF, zomb...

[zombie]

i didn't mean to make it seem like i needed to be complimented. but i appreciate it.

[Jason]

My issue is drive/passion/interest has plummeted. That line that Paul Rudd delivered in Knocked Up... "I wish I enjoyed anything as much as my kids enjoy bubbles"... sums it up fairly well.

[Jason]

i didn't mean to make it seem like i needed to be complimented. but i appreciate it.

You needed that reality check.

[zombie]

i didn't mean to make it seem like i needed to be complimented. but i appreciate it.

You needed that reality check.

thanks.

[zombie]

My issue is drive/passion/interest has plummeted. That line that Paul Rudd delivered in Knocked Up... "I wish I enjoyed anything as much as my kids enjoy bubbles"... sums it up fairly well.

is there a reason for the plummet of your drive and passion?

[Jason]

My issue is drive/passion/interest has plummeted. That line that Paul Rudd delivered in Knocked Up... "I wish I enjoyed anything as much as my kids enjoy bubbles"... sums it up fairly well.

is there a reason for the plummet of your drive and passion?

Nothing I can think of. Just been a slow burn into emotional purgatory over the last three or so years.

[zombie]

My issue is drive/passion/interest has plummeted. That line that Paul Rudd delivered in Knocked Up... "I wish I enjoyed anything as much as my kids enjoy bubbles"... sums it up fairly well.

is there a reason for the plummet of your drive and passion?

Nothing I can think of. Just been a slow burn into emotional purgatory over the last three or so years.

think about things that may have changed within those three years (or just before maybe too) and how you could turn it back or get it back again? or if that isn't possible, think about what you could do or have to fill the loss of those things?

that sounds like a big over simplification, but i don't want to push if you don't wanna talk about it.

[Jason]

I would love to chat about it. But I've thought a lot about what it could be and I can't pinpoint anything... Pretty unrelated, but I've been annoyed and stressed about work the last few weeks. The change in hours with no warning, no time to do anything. No time to even sleep. Never knowing when you're starting or getting off. Right now for instance, I have to be out the door in 5 hours for work, and I only got two or three hours sleep last night. My sleep pattern is fucked with so constantly that I don't even think I have one, anymore. I just collapse when I know I finally have a day to breathe.

[Foo]

Everyone here thinks of you as king of HMF, zomb...

and a god damn Sexual Tyrannosaurus...

[zombie]

I would love to chat about it. But I've thought a lot about what it could be and I can't pinpoint anything... Pretty unrelated, but I've been annoyed and stressed about work the last few weeks. The change in hours with no warning, no time to do anything. No time to even sleep. Never knowing when you're starting or getting off. Right now for instance, I have to be out the door in 5 hours for work, and I only got two or three hours sleep last night. My sleep pattern is fucked with so constantly that I don't even think I have one, anymore. I just collapse when I know I finally have a day to breathe.

can you take a day off here or there, just don't check what your start time is for the next day, or will they fire you if you opt out to get some rest and work out the stress for a little bit?

[zombie]

Everyone here thinks of you as king of HMF, zomb...

and a god damn Sexual Tyrannosaurus...

you guys can stop now. it starts feeling really forced at a certain point. and that's on me and how i feel about myself. sorry.

[Jason]

I would love to chat about it. But I've thought a lot about what it could be and I can't pinpoint anything... Pretty unrelated, but I've been annoyed and stressed about work the last few weeks. The change in hours with no warning, no time to do anything. No time to even sleep. Never knowing when you're starting or getting off. Right now for instance, I have to be out the door in 5 hours for work, and I only got two or three hours sleep last night. My sleep pattern is fucked with so constantly that I don't even think I have one, anymore. I just collapse when I know I finally have a day to breathe.

can you take a day off here or there, just don't check what your start time is for the next day, or will they fire you if you opt out to get some rest and work out the stress for a little bit?

I fear job loss. I take days off here and there, but I don't want to do it very often.

[zombie]

I would love to chat about it. But I've thought a lot about what it could be and I can't pinpoint anything... Pretty unrelated, but I've been annoyed and stressed about work the last few weeks. The change in hours with no warning, no time to do anything. No time to even sleep. Never knowing when you're starting or getting off. Right now for instance, I have to be out the door in 5 hours for work, and I only got two or three hours sleep last night. My sleep pattern is fucked with so constantly that I don't even think I have one, anymore. I just collapse when I know I finally have a day to breathe.

can you take a day off here or there, just don't check what your start time is for the next day, or will they fire you if you opt out to get some rest and work out the stress for a little bit?

I fear job loss. I take days off here and there, but I don't want to do it very often.

is this the only trucking job in the area that will hire you? or would that just be another place with the same hours and lack of a schedule that you can adjust to?

[Jason]

I don't even know. I'm almost entirely certain the stress will just follow me to any other job, anyway.

[zombie]

that sucks. the next time you get off, sleep all day?

[DancesWithWerewolves]

Watch Pot be the thing that brings Jason out of his depression